(updated on June 6th, 2021 room the original February 2021 essay)

“I know there’s someone out there
Waiting for me
There must be someone out there
There just has to be” — Has To Be by Madonna

I loved the 90s HBO sitcom Dream On as a kid. The main characther Martin’s internal dialog and thoughts always involved old movie clips. For me, its pop song lyrics. It sums up what I am feeling deep down in my heart, even though I try to ignore it or push it away. …

In 1995, I was attending the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign in my sophomore year. I was coming to grips with my sexuality and felt I was hiding who I was from my friends and family. It broke my heart because I thought I was living a lie, that I was a fraud. A phony.

Growing up, I lived in the conservative Chicago suburb of Glen Ellyn, Illinois. …

I agree with the Vice article 100000 percent. EDM is like McDonalds, popular empty calories lowest common denominator big room commercial dance music.

Is Blue Monday by New Order EDM? Is I Feel Love by Donna Summer EDM? Is Enjoy the Silence by Depeche Mode EDM.


Its like how they tried to call everything "Electronica" in the 90s, its a marketing gimmick

I would never insult Orbital or Underworld or Todd Terry or Joe Goddard of Hot Chip and tell them they were "EDM"

I will leave that cheese to the Afrojacks and Avicci's of the world

This is a lie.

Thinkful is not “invested in your future” or your success, especially if you are grappling with mental health issues like I have the past year. It seems like they are more interested in your money.

I was recently dismissed from their UI/UX bootcamp for having adult Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

Oddly enough, I found out I had ADHD after I went on a date 20 years ago. He saw the stacks of dirty dishes in my kitchen sink and just flat out asked

“Do you have ADHD?”

I said “no are you crazy, of course not!”

My friend Jay, on the left

Today is the 28th anniversary of my friend Jay’s death.

From the age of 7 to 14, we were pretty much inseparable. He was either at my house or I was over at his pace.

He died the day after we were inducted into the National Honors Society at the end of our junior year in high school.

Photo by ZaetaFlow Sec from Pexels

Maybe it is just me, but since I turned 40 I have been paranoid about my age, particularly since the Mighty Gray Hair Invasion of my beard has begun. My parents did not even start graying until their 60s, and my mom barely had any when she passed.

I might belong to the “tribes” where youth is celebrated and even a necessity; being gay, producing electronic music, and working in the tech/design industry. Let me leave it to the CEO and creator of Facebook to explain why.

“I want to stress the importance of being young and technical. Young people…

Also seeing lots of accessibility issues on these sites, small type, poor color contrast, auto play on videos

Fredrick Royster

Lapsed Web Designer, Aspiring UI/UX Professional, and Electronic Dance Music Aficionado from Chicagoland

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